Stop looking. Stop looking for love, for meaning, for clues. Haven’t you ever heard that when you stop looking, something better shows up? That when you stop looking for love, you meet someone that is better than anyone you ever tried to force it with? Or that when you lose something and stop searching for it, you eventually find something even greater?
Stop trying to force your life into something that you think it should be. You are looking at life from one point of view with expectations of what you (or society) has always imagined, what you have been unrealistically searching for. One thing happens to you and you think it is some sort of clue, thus leading you to believe you are that much closer to the end of the hunt. THERE ARE NO CLUES TO LIFE. Just live.
I know we have all heard the saying that life is a journey, not a destination. Cliché? Yes, but true. If you approach each day with hopes that you’ll be closer to that “end goal” you are going to be rather disappointed. Don’t wake up with hopes that you will find another clue to what you were “meant” to do/be. Instead, wake up with determination. Approach each day determined to conquer your fears. Instead of forcing things, listen to your heart and your mind. If something does not feel right, it probably isn’t. Live your life for you. Experience your life thoroughly and vividly and freely, just as you would any other journey.